QotD: Habit Forming

 

Do you have a habit you wish you could break?

Yea, its been a hard habit to break la!!! i've been trying to break if for like years but shit, i still can't.. and when i really try, somehow or rather i get succumbed into it again due to many factors. So, it had become a part and parcel of my life already. Ok, my bad bad habit is biting my nails.. People say its a sign of nervousness, yea, i noticed that its getting frequent during exams or in the middle of exams when i just got stuck.. Actually, there's a story behind this habit.. When i was in primary school, there was this day when we had spot checks. And bad luck day it was, my nails weren't clipped.. So, i was afraid of getting caned so my friend suggested we bite them off cause his nails were long too. At the first two biting, it seems so disgusting but later, it sort of like became a habit unconciously.. Another thing, i think its inheritance.. Most of my cousins bite nails but i don't really have a clue how they could kick the habit.. But one of my cousin still bites his nails now.. (he's older than me!! ). Lol, but u know what, i notice my cousins who bite nails excel in life.. so does it mean i'm also one? Just making a theory. haha, hopefully la.

I do feel self conscious now every time people look at my fingers. Seriously, i do feel they look ugly.. Besides, my skin complexion sucks, yeah, i just have scars of mosquito bites here and there.. sometimes i wonder if i can just have some make over skin treatment.. if there was one.. Not having nails is like troublesome at times.. it really irk me when i tried to open stuff that requires nails.. and in doing origami, i found that my fingers are like blunt.. man, i'll really am jealous of people with long and slender fingers... what u don't have makes you admire rite?

I'm not going to blame anyone for my habit cause bad carpenter blames his tools.. I'm the one to be blame.. i think i don't have enough will power to kick the habit.. or maybe unconsciously i do enjoy it.. well, heard that if u do things more than 22 times, it'll become a habit.. and u know what, if it was such a easy thing to overcome, it won't be a habit... Man, i wish a miracle will just settle my problems...I'm so desperate!

-.- desperado